Yesterday was one of the most overwhelming days of my life. I described it to one friend as like being in a dream where you are naked and standing in the middle of the town centre with everyone staring at you.
I really don't know what to say, other than I am blessed. Yesterday so many of you read, commented, tweeted, emailed, hugged, cried, and I feel loved. I feel free....ish. So much shame has lifted. Ironically, yesterday Operation Yewtree changed from an inquiry into a criminal investigation, as some of the allegations against Savile involve people still alive.
My prayers and thoughts are with the over 200 people who have come forward, and with the officers who are listening to these stories and gathering the evidence. This is more than just about Savile, for survivors like me its saying that child sexual abuse matters. That you matter. That I matter.
One of the touching emails I received was from an author in Australia, Jayneen Saunders who has written the most incredible book and resource pack called Some Secrets Should Never Be Kept. I will do a proper review of this book, and intend to purchase it today. The book is read on YouTube by Debbie Byrne, one of my childhood heroes, and herself a survivor. I have embedded the link for you here.
This book had me in floods of tears. It's simple, elegant, not scary, and gets at the issue in a tender way. I will have no issue reading this to my son.
Yesterday also saw Joseph being poorly, which rarely happens. The happy little boy in the picture was a most poorly one an hour later, but once home with mummy picked up, but I had loves and snuggles a lot yesterday.
I am so grateful.